Chesed

Friday November 16, 2007

This has been one of the most rotten weeks yet.  After three not-so-nauseous days last week I was sure I’d turned the corner early.  The weekend took a nose-dive and everything plummeted including my emotions.  Yesterday around 2 I seriously wondered whether I would keep myself in one piece the next three or four weeks physically and emotionally.

I woke up, once again sure that today would be better.  All it took to start the waves of nausea and lightheadness was to slide out of bed.  Groan.  By now I have become an expert at avoiding the frig.  We fix plates the night before and Adam can pull them out and pop them in the microwave.  In the morning, I turn my back, open the door and grope for the milk to fix cereal or hot chocolate.  If I’m really quick, I don’t smell or see anything. This morning that was still too much.  About the time I started heaving Adam raced for a Sprite from the case under the desk.  Between awful noises I gasped words to him about getting a cold one out of the frig and raced to the bathroom.  Out of the corner of my eye I saw him head towards the frig.  (Long ago I worried about traumatizing him when I start throwing up.  I need not have worried.  The first time I did it he thought it was so funny.  “Mommy what were you making?”)

When I finally flushed the toilet I heard him ask, “Are you feeling better?”  He was waiting just around the corner on the bottom step.  I asked him if he’d gotten the sprite.  “Well, it’s going to take awhile to get cold,” he said. 

“But, Adam, not that one.  There is a cold one in there.”

He went to look.  I gestured from 15 feet away and he finally found it.  “Don’t choke on this,” he said when he handed it to me.

Later over lunch I told him,  “Mommy is just so tired of being sick.   Are you tired of having Mommy be sick?”

“Yeah,” he said, “what are we going to do wif you?  I guess we’ll just have to take you outside, shake you off, and put you to bed in the grass.  But….den Goldi would just chew you up.”

If I thought it would help, I think I’d try it.

22 thoughts on “Friday November 16, 2007

  1. psalm150girl

    You’re seriously getting me worried way ahead of time, Michelle… 🙂 Ok, so maybe not. 😛 Adam sounds just SO cute. About being cold, I know, it’s awful to not be nice and warm. 🙂 I always LOVE visiting our American friends based in England, it’s so nice and warm at their house! I came back from babysitting one night and positively shivered at our house until my family wondered what was wrong with me… 🙂 I just went back and re-read your post. I can’t help laughing at Adam. I have to show this to Mom (she’s the one who will sympathize with you!! 🙂 ). Take care. 

  2. psalm150girl

    Just thought it looked like it… Btw, I saw you trying to help me fry Anita’s brain until she posts those tag pictures. Yeah, like she will… 🙂 We’ll have to see. Give Adam a hug for me. I just keep laughing every time I read some of your posts! It’s been too long since we’ve had a little one in our family, but I have babysat etc… and little children are soo cute!

  3. Anonymous

    now i’m ashamed that i am so tired of waiting for our baby to decide to show up…sending happy thoughts your way. it’s good you have adam to cheer you and bring you cold sprite.

  4. r4valilswitz

    I don’t know if this will help but I found if I ate at midnight, like noodles, hardboiled egg or some crackers and tea I felt better in the morning. I also took my prenatal at night. I really feel for you, I was sick for 4 monthes with Lamont.

  5. babydazed

    Michelle, I was going to leave a comment & tell you I did despair in town when Elliot puked, but I read your post and suddenly having Elliot puking wasn’t that big a thing anymore because I suddenly remembered the groping thing w/ eyes closed and trying not to breathe so I don’t smell anything and I thought to myself, “I have nothing to despair about!” in comparison!        Adam is hysterical!!  I’m sure you’re proud of him.  

  6. RallyJan

    Uggg, you do find ways of dealing w/ it. I was worse w/ Z. I taught DH he HAS to rinse his breakast dishes down the drain b/c if I came along later, just a glimpse would make me turn and run from the kitchen so I didn’t puke! And I really needed Sprite on ice to sip on!!! With L I didn’t puke but the gagging feeling was nearly constant until about 18 wks. Are you nearly there yet??? Z got used to mama not feeling well and laying on the couch. He doesn’t seem to be suffering any emotional effects b/c of it. Am not sure what the poor child ate during that time but we made out. DH did some of his own cooking, but certain items were BANNED from the house!!!LOL Oh me, just a year ago I was going through the same thing….and it does NOT last forever. Although I wondered why I ever wanted another baby sometimes. Now she is so bright and lovable.

  7. hiddencreeklapps

    I still remember WAY too well how it was to feel so sick and the sickness was starting two years ago already.  I wish I could forget it cus everytime I think about having another baby someday I remember that feeling and think “but I couldn’t handle being sick and taking care of Johann too…”  but they say it’s not as bad the second time if you HAVE to take care of #1.  I don’t believe it of course.  But it was worth the sickness to get my little one… such a paradox! 

  8. itsayoderworld

    Oh, bless your heart — and Adam’s, for being such a good little nurse.  Who knows?  Maybe this experience will make him decide on a career in the medical field when he grows up!  Praying that you’ll feel better soon…

  9. letshavechai

    Okay, this is my third time to leave you a comment on here, and every time it just gets erased!!   I’ll just say that I’m sorry you’re feeling so horrible and I hope you get better soon!  That is no fun!  Oh, and i just love your little gentleman, Adam.

  10. oneconfusedewe

    I am so sorry you have to face this stuff! Hoping it will be much better soon! It used to make me gag just to even think about it later!!

    Adam is priceless! I am thinking of all the stories you can tell him when he is a teenager!!

    Hang in there! Contrary to popular belief it does NOT last forever!!!

  11. Anonymous

    I remember so well the feeling! Whenever I jumped up off the couch to make a wild dash, Alexis would just holler “shut the door!” She wasn’t impressed with the sound effects! Hope better days are ahead soon!

  12. teagal

    Michelle i don’t know whether to laugh or cry….i feel like crying because i feel so bad for you and how horribly sick you feel but i have to laugh at adam!  Hey have a lovely thanksgiving and i do hope you won’t have to puke down there!

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