Saturday May 17, 2008
When I was a little girl and started saying things that weren’t nice my mom said, “If you can’t think of something nice to say, just don’t say anything at all.” Driving with my friend’s family one night, I realized I had it easy. She started in on her twin brother and after a few pretty vicious remarks her dad said, “ok, Melanie, I want you to say three nice things for every mean thing you said.” WHEW!
So, I’ve been quiet. Because there just haven’t been many nice things to say around here. And certainly not enough to come up with three for every not so nice thought.
Today is a nice day. In fact, other then the fact that I am a whopping forty weeks pregnant, it’s been a really nice day. So maybe I can at least find something to say as long as I don’t start in on the negatives and have to redeem them.
After too many cloudy, cool, rainy days, it is gloriously sunny with rich blue skies and a few puffy clouds. That in itself lifts my mood about twenty notches. (My body is solar-powered.) Thank God I am not nine months pregnant in January.
It’s Saturday. That means David Lee is at home. I stayed in bed until almost ten with my depressed little self while he took care of Adam. It would have been even better if I would have remained oblivious to the rather unhealthy breakfast they consumed.
Since we couldn’t birth a baby, we birthed a flower bed. There is something about plants that feels life-giving and hopeful. Except that we only had one of the plants here. But the ground is well-prepped and there are little flags stuck in the ground to mark what goes where as soon as we get them.
Mostly today I continue trying to keep my brain on auto mode. To not think about much of anything besides sterile thoughts such as “lift arm to complete next task.” Which isn’t so difficult as you might think because by now my brain and body are both so wearily on overload it’s difficult to hold a normal conversation. Adam and I both do well with things like Candy Land, Chutes and Ladders, and Rummicube right now. Brainless work. And then we get to laugh hysterically at things like going ice skating or getting into the cookie jar AGAIN.
Sigh. But underneath it all there is a strong mental undercurrent that goes like this. “Baby, baby, please come soon. Mommys running out of room.” And mommy is getting scared, too. About certain logistics. Baby?
I’m not even gonna say anything, cause at this point in time, there is not much I could say to cheer you up. BUT I know how you feel. I’ve been there, done that…. THREE times!!! Here’s hoping you will see cheery days really really really soon.
let me encourage you . . . it WILL be okay. the baby WILL come. I remember the feeling, though . . . I thought I would be pregnant for the rest of my life after the due date passed. this time around I am simply counting my due date as a week later than the actual one. that way I might be surprised when it comes “early” =] hope you get to hold him soon!!
Try to be patient. The little one will come when he/she gets ready. My second daughter was over a week late. She weighed 9lb. 11oz., so I was really ready for her arrival. I’ll be praying that all goes well for both of you! Lord Bless ~Judy
Just trying to remember what I did to help the nine days after my due date pass more quickly. I think I tried to plan something every day in the hopes that if I had something planned something would happen. That didn’t work. Neither did reading all the info I could about inductions; all it succeeded in doing was scaring me more than I was already. This time, I’ve already got an induction date picked out.
Don’t you just love all the well-meaning comments that you get about ways to “get baby here”? My favorite one was when people told me to walk. By 41 weeks, I started getting all sarcastic and saying, “You mean I should be walking 5 miles a day instead of the 3 I’m already doing?” Prayers and hugs for you right now!
Did you, um, bend over to do your flower bed? I remember when I was 40 weeks + 1 day pg with Kiersten. I went shopping and hoped nobody would ask me when I was due b/c it felt so horrible to say “yesterday”.
I’m pretty sure you won’t mind if I say I hope I don’t see you for lunch tomorrow.
Here’s praying he decides tonight would be a good night to make his arrival. =)
I was thinking about you a lot this week, and will keep on praying for the minutes to go fast, and the peace to increase. much love to you …
We’re all awaiting this dear little baby and praying it will be very soon now, maybe even today! Bless your heart for trying to be positive and try finding a few nice things to say about life when it feels like life is the pits 🙁 C U this afternoon, maybe , maybe Steven’s lane will jiggle something loose in there !!!!!
Be glad it’s not July in the midst of an extra hot, dry summer! I thought it was just me that thought that way last year, but records showed that it really was! Being 40 weeks pg then was NO fun, and I’m sure it’s not on the nicest spring day either. And well meaning advice is not something a 40 wk+ pg lady wants to hear, so I’ll close with the words of a doctor, “We never left one in there yet!”
All I can say is, know how you feel, hope it happens soon. 🙂 Good to hear from you again. 🙂
Hope you get relief soon 🙂 and all goes just wonderful.
I know how you feel too. I know it’s not fun to wait on and on and feel like an elephant. I said the last time that having a baby naturally is like waiting for the coming of the Lord. We do not know the day nor the hour.
I did hear somewhere that each day longer in the womb is like a week outside of the womb. That statement of course, has its limits, but it was comforting to me to think that my baby is safe and protected in there, and has more chances for a healthier start. Truly, you will feel “delivered.”
well, i know how you feel too! it is no fun!! ok, JK!! i have NOOO idea how you feel. (was that a bad joke?)
but all the same, i hope that baby “glides” right out into the world, soon! =)
There’s nothing so hard as seeing the date come and go, especially if you went early the first time. Here’s hoping you keep finding things to laugh at between the tears. I was a total wreck when I was overdue. God bless you and give you strength for waiting a little longer or for a delivery! I’ve been thinking of you and am praying for you. Looking forward to some sweet newborn pics before long.
You have my pity!! I can’t say I have ever been “over due” [I always scheduled an induction before that:)] I know how the days, hours, minutes can drag by when you are waiting on a baby to come!
Michelle, I am shuddering and groaning, remembering going two weeks overdue with Sara! I think I remember starting every day with tears, partly because my mom had flown over here to be with me and she was going to be here only three weeks. I’m praying for you!!!
Sorry. I sympathize with you too! I never thought that I would go overdue since I went 2 weeks early with my first one and 10 days early with my second one. BUT…I went 11 days overdue this past December. I was not a happy camper. I prayed and cried and worried. But everything was ok and my delivery with him was actually easier and faster than what it was with the other two. Blessings, mercy and grace……
Hey Michelle, I was thinking of you a lot last week. It must be miserable to go overdue, especially after going early with Adam. Sure hope that this baby doesn’t wait too much longer. Who knows, maybe today?! Anyhow, I’m impressed that you found something positive to write about.
Thinking of you today …. hope you had your baby – but if not….. it’s gonna come ! i know the feeling – i went overdue with almost all of mine – 5 of them!
I just feel your misery…. those last weeks are enough to make me want to wait for a long time to have another one! Praying for you!
How well I know the feeling of going beyond your due date and thinking you will be pg forever! Hang it there it will happen and I say a prayer for you every time I think about you and i hope he will come into this world soon!!!!!! I t was so good to hear from you. By the way, can i do anything for you? Take care of Adam for a few hours or come do your laundry or bring you something to eat or come chat with you and tell you all about the wedding or would you rather be left alone? Love ya, Gina
Hopefully you’re sleeping as I type this. Just wanted you to know I’m praying for a restful night for you (well, actually, starting labor would be fine too).
May I be the first to say, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am beyond thrilled for you!! Can’t wait for pics & the story. So glad that your long wait is finally over! Blessings…
happy happy for you!! 🙂