Wednesday February 23, 2011
I don’t know what it is with Wednesdays (and no, I’m not superstitious). But late this afternoon I felt another layer of darkness lift! No reason to explain it … no amazing miraculous here is the right button … I just suddenly felt different. My brain feels clearer. My slow and slower modes have actually switched up to near normal movement. And for the first time I actually felt like eating when we sat down at the table.
I am beginning to hope for real.
Yesterday’s pathology report:
Partial molar.
Never liked the word partial before. Partial piece of pie. Partial taste of Spring. Partial to certain people. Yesterday it became one of my favorite words. Not that it changes anything except for the statistics stating chances of tumor cells returning. We’re down to 5%.
And just because I was curious I asked for hcg levels. When I kept asking questions the Friday before surgery Dr. * just kept patting my shoulder and saying, “let’s wait on the pathology report to make sure but as long as your hcg is below 100,000 you’re fine.” That day it was 156,000. Three days later (the Monday of surgery) it was 196,000.
One week later it was 3,397. Considering how sick it makes me as my hcg level slowly rises, maybe there is a reason I felt like death that week.
Got to go to bed. I am exhausted. I just wanted to shout out a huge thank you to all of you who have been praying and sending love.
Do I ever like feeling better.
Michelle. I’m so glad to hear this!! Rejoicing with you!
So glad life is looking brighter!!
Aw. What a huge blessing and answer to prayer. : )
So glad for you, Praying every Wed. will find you much better!!
So Happy for you!
yay for your positive news, and especially for the clouds of heaviness beginning to lift!
So glad you’re feeling better! God bless you with continued healing.
So happy to hear your cloud is lifting!
PTL!!!!
WOnderful!!! Beeen wondering how you are doing, so glad to here good news like that!!!
sometimes happy news makes me cry. and this is one of those times.
celebrating the SONbeams through the clouds!
Rejoicing with you, girlfriend.
That’s what friends are for! To talk with you through the good times AND the bad times!
Ahh, praise the Lord!! To feel that darkness lifting and being able to hope that it actually will not last forever… and normal just may be around the bend..:) Thank you, Jesus.
Sooo happy to hear this news! Continuing to pray for you.
So happy for you!
That’s great! Your body has just been through a heck of an ordeal… Praying you continue to recover!
Wow, NO WONDER you felt so terrible physically and emotionally the first couple of weeks!! You poor thing!!
Sooo glad about the “partial” and sooo very glad that you’re feeling better!!
SO glad you’re feeling better! Continuing to pray for you.
so glad to hear that your numbers are going down…i’m not sure what that means, but it seems to be a big change. i’m glad to hear as well that you seem to have come to another glorious crossroads where some more layers of this darkness that you’ve been feeling has lifted. you are loved and prayed for.
happy for you Michelle….
this hopeful makes my heart feel so much lighter!