Wednesday November 5, 2008
Do you ever wish you were a robot so you wouldn’t feel things? Today is one of those days when I feel more like sitting down and crying then anything else. Nothing is so terribly wrong … but nothing is clicking like I hoped either. I blew the entire morning taking Adam in to the pediatrician again for his still painful ear. Yes, it perforated. Yes, it’s still infected. Yes, he needs another round of a different antibiotic.
Liam is in one of those “sleep for ten minutes wake up crying” kind of nap days. I didn’t complete 1/4 of my to do list yesterday and when I try to work on it today, I keep getting interrupted.
I tried to upload a photo order only to realize the web page is down for some bizarre reason.
Finishing the dress I’m sewing looks so appealing because the first thing I have to do is pick a seam.
It feels futile to start a project because my supper menu tonight takes longer then most and we have church tonight and I’m really tired of us being late. Especially because 98% of the time it’s my fault for not starting supper earlier, giving the boys baths before supper, etc.
No one I try to call is at home (lucky for them).
“Some days are like that. …. Even in Australia.”
I love your honesty. Yeah, some days are just like that. Relax- There’s always tomorrow.
i feel exactly the same way today!exactly!!
right now i want to cry, because i am so, so tired and i planned on a long nap, but marc’s brother and his friend showed up and are watching robin hood and drinking coffee, and eating my cherry cheesecakes, and so i can’t put the boys down, and soon the baby will wake up, and soon my chance for a nap will be over, and i am so, so tired.
Aw Michelle – have a good cry! Or, if you’re self-concious, peel some onions! Sorry, my bad for joking.
Bless you dear woman – keep going! Yes, tomorrow will come – it’s already tomorrow in half the world… I’m quite sorry my ‘plans’ for coming to the States this winter won’t work out… I was hoping to spend time with you. Oh well. God knows best. Anyhow. I’ll keep you in prayer.
Some days it just feels that way. Like I said this past weekend when a toddler was having a cry, “life is rough and then you die”. Honestly, though, it’s not cheerless and void of joy. Sometimes it just feels that way. Praying for a restful night for you and the babies and a better tomorrow!
I’m sorry you are having a bad day. I have found that most days when “all goes wrong” it soon ends, then the next is better. Hope you made it time for church, not because it’s church, but because I know the stress of rushing around like a chicken with it’s head off, then still be late and have a husband who doesn’t say anything but wonders what the matter is with his dear wife..and why she flies around so…. =)
Antibiotics…. it’s a pain to remember daily doses for one round, twice, oh dear, sure hope it works this time. Hoping for a looooong uninterrupted nights sleep for you and a very sleepy baby tomorrow.
oooh, I cringe and get teary eyes just thinking about Adam’s poor ear, because I had so much of that pain growing up. I suspect that’s why I’m slightly hard of hearing now, but at least I grew out of the persistent infections. Bless you and yours.
Hmmm, maybe you should have called me. I’m just beginning to understand how stretching it can be to be a mom…and I only have a one brand new little newborn. I don’t know if yesterday and last night was more rough on her or me. I hope I don’t have many days like that! Hang in there..and I’ll do the same. Oh, and I have my babies first doctor appointment this morning. I’m nervous.
@psalm150girl – Asia, you are TOO funny. Peel onions, what a great idea. Now I know what job to jump for when I’m feeling rotten somewhere else!
@djbender – Oh, bless you. How well, how well I remember. My SIL and I were talking yesterday about a new mom-to-be and we concluded that there is absolutely nothing that can compare you for the stretch of being a mom (besides maybe fostering). And while it’s true that life as a mom never stops being stretching, you may find this comforting. The first two months are definitely the most intense. (never mind that the dr’s say two weeks. I’m a mom. I know better.) After that your body definitely feels a little better and most babies become less fussy and better settled into a sleep / wake / happy most of the time routine. I know that you are enjoying her so much; but don’t forget to enjoy a few moments of yourself either. Wierd terminology. When I was a first time mom I was so consumed w/ my new baby that I raced through every shower … what if my baby needed me? … even if someone else took care of him. Take 10 min when someone else has her and let your own body just not feel responsible at least sometimes! And know that you are a good mom. I worried about that. A lot. What they all say “comes naturally” does not truly all come naturally; but I believe that no mom loves her baby as much as you do and somehow ignorantly does not act as a good mommy to her. Here are (((hugs))) for you. And best wishes at the doctors office! They were the highlight of my months at first (and should be if you have a good doctor!)
My yesterday was a not so good day too. It’s nice to hear that others have those days for no apparent reason. Alexander and the terrible, horrible, not so good, very bad day is one of my favorite childrens book. I had to laugh at that comment! =)
Michelle, been there, done that. Wad up that to-do list and throw it in the trash. Put the dress away for a time when you’re feeling really ambitious and make grilled cheese and canned tomato soup for supper. It brought tears to my eyes to read your blog and remember all too well those days….
Make a pot of coffee and go sit in your living room. Got a good book?
Poor, poor Adam and his earache. I have no remedy there. I would say love him to death but I know you already do that…….
Trust me, I’ve done that before. I was helping make & can pizza sauce in Poland in the summer, & my eyes were literally streaming. They teased me, but it kind of felt good. Haha. Yes, you can just say “It’s the onions, seriously!!” And oh the pain of ear infections… I also used to get them very frequently…
Sorry! Would you like for me to finish your dress for you?